myindia

Trust me, it’s paradise. This is where the hungry come to feed. For mine is a generation that circles the globe in search of something we haven’t tried before. So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite, and never outstay your welcome. Just keep your mind open and suck in the experience, and if it hurts, you know what? It’s probably worth it. (from “The beach”)

Stop trying to control everything and just let go.

India has taught me so many things. After not being sure if it was the country itself or the people I have met there a couple of years ago, I know today: it’s the country and its people. And the people were great five years back and still - these guys I have met right now are also great. I believe it’s up to the country again. It’s up to what India has made out of them!

Well, for me it’s so clear now. After all these years being in search of what I really wanna do, I have made so many (sensible) decisions that I always had to asked myself: is this really what I want to do?

The day I came back from India, I did not have to think about it anymore. How bad is it actually if you have to THINK about what you wanna do? It should just come straight from your heart. Your heart should tell you. It’s supposed to be a FEELING, not a clever and sensible thought about what’s the best thing to do.

The day I came back from India, I felt it with my whole heart. Going back is what I really wanna do.

I believed that going back to Pune this year would show me a lot differences and everybody said: hey, it won’t be the same anymore. But it felt like it was the same like before. Although the people and the conditions changed a lot - of course - now I know: I can handle it. I am able to get along with the different circumstances very well.

And that is what I can rely on. Not ignoring this feeling anymore. Not ignoring that India actually is the country where I wanna live again for some longer time.

I’m not suffering being back in Germany. Of course not. I try to look at “my” world here from another point of view and with another perception. And the closer I look at it, the more ridiculous it seems to me. Like I wrote on my first day back in Germany: people do not have any problems at all. They are just working on creating little, tiny, absolutely not-critical problems so they can solve them and feel good about it. Otherwise their lifes would be too boring. Maybe I’m sounding to harsh now. I know that people do have serious problems.

But for me it’s just too organized here. Even if you don’t care about anything at all in Germany, you know you will survive. There is always someone caring about you and if it is only the police. When you have an accident, you can be sure that you will be brought to a hospital within minutes.

I appreciate this at all! But as a result people get bored here so fast. Because they don’t really get satisfied in their lives. There are no real challenges. So they challenge themselves in taking drugs, becoming violent or they just get lost in their minds until they need psychological help.

And as a result again people here are so cold. Do not ever expect germans talk to each other in a bus. Or while sitting in a waiting room. Do not ever expect people smiling to you on the street. Do not ever expect that if you should come to Germany once. (Again, I’m to harsh in saying it that way. But I just wanna try to help you to get my point. My feeling of going back to India. My feeling of “being here is neither necessary nor challenging me”.)

I’ll close this blog today. Maybe I’ll keep on blogging here on www.mkkn.com about my everyday life here in Germany. Thank you very very much for reading the articles and contributing to the blog or mailing to me! I really really really appreciated this! Hope to see everyone of you again. Maybe at a reunion or just sometime somewhere in this small world.

Gonna miss you, guys. Gonna miss you, India.